Friday, April 18, 2008

38 years

*So it is 1:11am, my 38th Birthday has now officially ended. What to do now. My husband had a tooth pulled this week, his 5th this year. I have a raging cold, with stuffed head, sore throat, and super clogged ears. Hubby forgot to wish me Happy Birthday until the day was half over. Jerk! :-) It always feels weird having to tell people that it is your birthday, as if they should see it on your face, feel the cake and party vibes radiating from your smile. I did however have many nice phone calls and a few sweet emails. My 3 year old daughter fought me saying it was HER Birthday today not mine. Silly one she is!

*We went to dinner, which was stupid given us both feeling like crap, but it was better then sitting at home. I was not 100% in the mood for a huge deal, so the quiet local restaurant was perfect. Now it is VERY late, I feel like dirt, and can't sleep. I want a do-over! I want a FUN day, not a sick day. Yes, I did get my toes done... an amazing shade from OPI called Ink. It is a shimmery dark blue. Very sexy in a "stay-at-home-mom meets goth" kinda way, but it makes me smile so there!

*I have added a counter to the blog. I am 730 days away from my 40th Birthday. I plan to wake up that morning in a hotel @ the Grand Canyon. It has been a dream of mine to see, feel, taste, and experience all that is Grand in this Canyon. The counter will remind me each day that I am one step closer to this amazing milestone in my life. I plan to ride a donkey, ride a rapid, and walk until my feet bleed. I need this goal... I need this place... it is my Atlantis, rising up like a miracle out of the ground. A place to feel so small, so completely engulfed in the splendor of nature.

*The goal has been set. All I need to go now is make the plan. There are over 100lbs that need to be lost, shape that needs to be gotten into, and all of this had a deadline of 730 days. My life is shifting, the motivation is there, all I need it the faith. Faith in myself, the process, and the goal. As a huge part of reaching this dream, I plan to blog just about everyday. At the end there will be an amazing memory of the work it took to get to the bottom of the Grand Canyon and back.

*Happy Day to me...